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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

I used to think
I had the answers to everything
But now I know
That life doesn't always go my way, yeah
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl

There is no need to protect me
It's time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own
I've seen so much more than you know now
So don't tell me to shut my eyes

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl

But if you look at me closely
You will see it in my eyes
This girl will always find her way

I'm not a girl, don't tell me what to believe
I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah
Oh, all I need is time
That's mine, while I'm in between

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl, Not yet a woman


-not a girl, not yet a woman by britney spears

smiles @ 21:38.
Monday, March 28, 2005

Well its 9pm and you still haven't called me back
And if I try again I think youll feel like you under attack
I dont think I can take it I dont think I can make it
I just want this to go away

Trying to be someone that you know you're not
It gets harder everyday
All the lonely days
There's no one left to love
You wish life would go away

Now its 2am and im pacing around on the floor
I wait for you to come home but you never come walk through that door
Now im trying to fake it I just cant seem to shake it
I just want this to go away

Trying to be someone that you know you're not
It gets harder everyday
All the lonely days
There's no one left to love
You wish life would go away

I know one day i'll get through this
I know one day we'll be done
I know one day i'll find a way
To see you

Now its 6am and I smashed all the you left behind
I gotta throw this away these things that'll never be mine

Trying to be someone that you know you're not
It gets harder everyday
All the lonely days
There's no one left to love
You wish life would go away
Trying to be someone that you know you're not
It gets harder everyday


-harder everyday by ashlee simpson

smiles @ 21:47.
Sunday, March 27, 2005

bored.

bored.

bored.

i spent my previous 15 mins or so trying to think of 'inspirational' lyrics to learn of...
but as u ppl can see.none struck me just now.

have i chim entries.?.
wahahahas.
but then again.
if u dont understand...
it doesnt really make a difference does it.?.

i mean.
this is my blog.

smiles @ 19:26.
Saturday, March 26, 2005

i dont know how i feel now la.
hmmmm.
happy.?.
sad.?.
disappointed.?.
contented.?.

hahas.
im all in a blur la.
i'll just go along...
and see where it leads.

im now listening to strange way to save the world by jump5.
and i think the chorus is something we would always think
when things dont go the way we want it.

why me.?.im just a simple man of trade
why him.?.with all the rulers in the world
why here.?.inside this stable filled with hay
why her.?.she's just an ordinary girl

why me.?.
dats always the first thing we would think.
only den would we go into others' perspective.
its always me.me.me.

guess we.
i.
have to change it.
ya.?.

smiles @ 17:28.
Friday, March 25, 2005

baby baby I swear to you
baby baby I'm here for you

I don't know why
Why I did those things to you
What went through my mind
And I don't know why
Why I broke your heart in two
Guess that I was blind
Baby how I wish you could forgive me
Just One more time

And I swear
I'll be there
Anytime you want me to
I'll be true
Here for you
Don't leave me lonely
'Cause I need you

Yes I've been a fool
now I see the price to pay
I can't run and hide
'Cause I'm losing you
And my chances slipped away
With each time I lied
Baby how I wish you could forgive me
One more time

And I swear
I'll be there
Anytime you want me to
I'll be true
Here for you
Don't leave me lonely
'Cause I need you

Baby living without you
Will tear me apart
When I know how it could have been
But I don't care what it leads to
Let’s make a new start
And give love a chance to win...

'Cause baby I swear
Baby baby I swear to you
Anytime you want me to
Baby baby i'm here for you
don't leave me lonely
'Cause I need you

And I swear
I'll be there
Anytime you want me to
I'll be true
Here for you
Don't leave me lonely
'Cause I need you


-i need you by westlife.

smiles @ 22:52.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005

okies.
i've decided to break my chain of learning-from-lyrics entries.
for now.
hahas.
i may get back to it later.
but now.i juz cant find the right song to describe how i feel.
so yeah.
so until den......

u know the times.?.
when u juz wished dat u could read someone's mind.?.
or the times when u juz wished u could tell the future.?.
to know if wad ure doing is actually worth it.

yeah ive wished it many times.
but i seriously wish for it now.
im at the crossroads.
but there are more den juz 2 options.

so i guess tossing a coin is out of the question huh.?.

smiles @ 20:36.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005

In these eyes, more than words
More than anything that I've spoken
As the skies turn to grey
My heart's just about to crack open
So the story goes
But there's something you should know
Before I walk away and I blow the ending

yeah.but i guess i already did huh.?.
i walked out many times.
and all of those times.i wanted to turn back.
but pride kept me from it.
sometimes its just so hard.

I never wanna be without you
Oh no, here I go, now you know
What I feel about you
There's no running
I must have been wrong to doubt you
Oh no, there I go, no control
And I'm fallin', so now you know

u werent supposed to know.
but u picked up the hints.

Feels so right, cravin' oxygen
All these truths left me empty
Will you run, can you handle it
Cause I need you to tell me
Maybe this is bold
But I'm hoping you'll stay for the happy ending

im not going to think dat far...
but i'll need ur point of view on this.i need u to tell me.
and im still waiting...

So the story goes
Yeah, you already know
So don't be a fool and go spoil the ending


-now u know by hilary duff.

smiles @ 08:21.
Monday, March 21, 2005

You don't run with the crowd
You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart


different.
thats wad ppl say abt me.
but wads it dats different.?.
is the thing dat ppl themselves,too have no idea.
'ur different'.they say.'but i dont know why.'

I know sometimes you feel
Like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know
What you have within

a loner.
i describe myself as dat.
but i realised dat wad andy said was true.
im constantly surrounded by ppl who love me.who care for me.
wad more could i want.?.

What makes you different makes you beautiful
What's there inside you
Shines through to me

wad im hoping.wad im praying.
is dat the light they see in me.
the difference dat sets me apart.
is actually the light of God.

yeah.a testimony for God.
dats wad i wanna be.


- extracts of what makes you different by the backstreet boys

smiles @ 20:19.
Sunday, March 20, 2005

Mirror, Mirror lie to me.
Show me what I wanna see.
Mirror, Mirror lie to me.

Why don't I like the girl I see?
The one who's standing right in front of me.
Why don't I think before I speak?
I should have listened to that voice inside me.
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of thing I said last night

Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall,
You don't have to tell me,
Who's the biggest fool of all.
Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me.
And bring my baby back,
Bring my baby back to me.

Mirror, Mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror, Mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see

Why did I let you walk away?
When all I had to do was say 'I'm sorry'.
I let my pride get in the way
In the heat of the moment I was to blame.
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
Now in the cold light of the day I realize

Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall,
You don't have to tell me,
Who's the biggest fool of all.
Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me.
And bring my baby back,
Bring my baby back to me.

If only wishes could be dreams,
And all my dreams could come true.
There would be two of us standing here in front of you.
If you could show me that someone that I used to be.
Bring back my baby, my baby to me

Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall,
You don't have to tell me,
Who's the biggest fool of all.
Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me.
And bring my baby back,
Bring my baby back to me.

Mirror, Mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror, Mirror lie to me


-'mirror mirror' by m2m

smiles @ 19:59.
Saturday, March 19, 2005

life is.hmmmm.good.?.alrite.?.ok.?.

i dont know.for me.im happy.

but its not really wad i can say for many i know la...facing problems...challenges...its like.neva ending.after talking to one.i turn and face another.its.tiring me out.juz trying to think of ways to comfort ppl...to 'counsel' them.

school starts in like.less den 48 hours time.so irritating la.still like.damn pissed abt my 1 mark failure for a maths.grrr...

melanie has agreed to come on fridays for cell.thank God for answering prayer.i juz pray dat its not juz a one off agreement but start coming regularly.renee...its a whole different story la.we've like.drifted.and i dont really know how to approach her la.for mel.it was kinda easy.i mean.come on las.mel and i were practically sisters last time la.i'll juz continue to pray for renee...

i knocked my elbow onto something juz now...and now my left hands partially retarded.how brilliant.

smiles @ 20:27.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005

there are 2 reasons why i get pissed with someone easily.

one.the person gave me a bad first impression...and lets juz say.i get irritated with he/she easily.i know its bad.but wad can i do.?.i juz feel this way.

two.the person means alot to me.so i get easily pissed cos he/she is not meeting up to wad i expect of him/her.yeah.

like.5 arguements in juz one 3-hour conversation.

so u guess.which do u belong.?.

smiles @ 13:20.
Sunday, March 13, 2005

u crap.
wad an insult.

im pissed.
im insulted.

misunderstanding.?.

but i have still no idea wads the truth.
how am i to ask.?.

smiles @ 20:45.
Saturday, March 12, 2005

irritated.
pissed.
regret.

one huge lie.

its back to haunt.

a guy and a girl.
all was well.
he was great.caring.msg-ed constantly.
maybe juz a bit too mushy for her liking.
but life was perfect.

the situation changed.
things became unfavourable.

she was afraid.
she knew not wad to say.

the huge lie was invented.

he was unwilling.
she painfully avoided and ignored.
it was a thunderstorm.
feelings were hurt.never can be forgotten.
never can be healed.

time went on.
a year passed.

she met another guy.
he was funny.he was good.
but somehow it wasnt the same.
but still it took away alot of the lonliness.alot of the pain.
alot of the memories.

but again.circumstances were not good.things changed.

now shes back to square one.
the memories are back.
but things are different.

he had moved on.juz like she did.

only now.
hes happy.
shes alone.

if only dat lie was never invented...


dont lie.
take it from me.

smiles @ 15:18.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005

ignored.

time and again.

if u dont want me ard.juz say it ok.?.

im tired.tired of second-guessing u.tired to trying to figure wad u tink.wad u are trying to say.
who do u tink you are.?.

hais.

but its precisely because u are who u are...which is why im bothering to do these things.

feelings cant be controlled...
if i could i would have taken these and deleted them.send to junk mail.block from my inbox foreva.

but i cant.

however hard i try.
i juz cant.

its leading me nowhere...
juz down to u.

but its where i cant go.

where i will not go.

cos it hurts.
bad.

complicated happenings today.

helped him.
helped her.

but whos gonna help me.?.

smiles @ 20:03.
Tuesday, March 08, 2005

finally.!.

wahahahas.

my a maths paper is done and over with...

and sad to say.so are my marks.

grrr.

i shldnt have done all those 10ys ques la.

waste my time.

waste my brain cells.

waste my sLeEp.!.

stayed back with bindy and a couple of others to study physics after school today.

wad.

i study one ok.?.hmph.

anyways.it turned out me and alvin doing our own studying...while bindy taught the 2 other slow lemons clare and wenjia.

so much for studying.

ahahahas.

certain people are ignoring me.

so irritating.

or perhaps its the other way round.?.

wahahahas.

wadeva it is.

im learning to heck care...

no loss to me...

rite.?.

smiles @ 21:03.
Monday, March 07, 2005

im damn sian la.

a maths.

a maths.

and more a maths.

urgh.

i feel like.a trash bin.juz absorbing everything.den spitting it all out on test papers.

i hAtE a mAthS.!.!.!.

my bros currently 'tutoring' me whenever he has time.and he charges by the hour.when he eventually clocks up an hour.

hes now buried deep under with a indices question for the.hmmmm.past hour.?.

how ironic.

got a 1 for a maths.but even then...

i am so not looking forward to tml.

doomsday.

smiles @ 21:22.
Sunday, March 06, 2005

i studied a maths again today.

or rather.tried to.

but joel suddenly decided to play cs.

so much for helping.

argh...a maths is so irritating la.its like.i have no idea why we learn it for la.i mean.matrices.?.wads has it gotta do with ur practical everyday life.?.rubbish.sec3 is so...bleahX.

congress is on this coming weekend.the very same weekend everyone decides to hold something.prefect camp...cip.wadeva.im not going.hehs.congress leh...general and whoevers gonna be there.um.plus its gonna be combined meeting.

hahas.

geddit.?.

smiles @ 21:21.
Saturday, March 05, 2005

i can survive.

w/o having to blog for days.

sorry to my blog-faithful followers...ive been blogging rubish for the past couple of entries.

i learnt something new.

fon.full of nonsense.

haha.sounds good.

im so proud of myself.i studied a maths for 2 hours straight.!.wahahahas.anybody wanna throw me a party.?.lols.

vincent forgot his blog username.now he wants me to rmb his new username when he creates it.and im thinking.why not the password to go along with it.?.

fon.

smiles @ 20:57.

deeply loved

RACHEL
26`o5; child of GOD.

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