Tuesday, November 27, 2007
sometimes i wonder how people can just like spill anything and everything they're feeling about on their blog.i mean, isn't it very frightening?like, everyone will know how you feel, what you feel, when you felt happy/lonely/afraid/every other emotion that you can feel...doesn't it make you feel super vulnerable?and then people will go like, oh so and so was feeling like that last week cos so and so did something to her...blah blah.
i don't know.many people have blogs for different reasons.some really treat it as a diary, which i unfortunately can't.its too...public to spill whatever i'm feeling or my secrets to.to me, its like writing in a locked diary but leaving the key in the lock.i guess my blog is used to post random stuff.or stuff that i feel can represent my feelings...but not in the in-your-face way.it leaves people guessing, i admit that.haha.but at least i don't feel so exposed and vulnerable.
i've nothing against all of you that treat your blog as your diary.hey its a personal choice.i'm just reasoning with myself what i actually use my blog for.maybe im thinking of closing it down.i don't know, we'll see.meanwhile no offense to anybody yeah?just take this as another random post.
just back from band chalet and pasir ris and basically the highlight wasn't the half hour bbq (at least that's how much time my section actually spent eating) but rather the cycling.the night cycling with michelle soomin manfred and shaun was really the best.we got lost around paris ris park, cycled under bridges into hdb estates, til we even called the lokang with trees along its side as 'scenery'.haha but i think we became even closer, trusted each other more, bonded more.it felt safe cycling with them, with the guys being so gentlemanly enough to take the two ends.haha.
the early morning cycle with some other j1s and j2s was great too.haha it was like the random-est of all people thrown together.we basically started out going back to the lokang to take a photo and from there it led on to one place after the next, one park to the next...til we ended up at bedok reservior.after that we followed the mrt track all the way back to the chalet.i think we were a hazard to pavement traffic, but it was fun.all in all we cycled about 4 hours.and plus the 4 hours cycled earlier with the section, i did like 8 hours of cycling.came home in the afternoon and just crashed.
i'm having alot of different feelings and emotions now.its making me all confused.actions, words, vibes...haha.
i don't know.i really don't know anything anymore.
i don't know.many people have blogs for different reasons.some really treat it as a diary, which i unfortunately can't.its too...public to spill whatever i'm feeling or my secrets to.to me, its like writing in a locked diary but leaving the key in the lock.i guess my blog is used to post random stuff.or stuff that i feel can represent my feelings...but not in the in-your-face way.it leaves people guessing, i admit that.haha.but at least i don't feel so exposed and vulnerable.
i've nothing against all of you that treat your blog as your diary.hey its a personal choice.i'm just reasoning with myself what i actually use my blog for.maybe im thinking of closing it down.i don't know, we'll see.meanwhile no offense to anybody yeah?just take this as another random post.
just back from band chalet and pasir ris and basically the highlight wasn't the half hour bbq (at least that's how much time my section actually spent eating) but rather the cycling.the night cycling with michelle soomin manfred and shaun was really the best.we got lost around paris ris park, cycled under bridges into hdb estates, til we even called the lokang with trees along its side as 'scenery'.haha but i think we became even closer, trusted each other more, bonded more.it felt safe cycling with them, with the guys being so gentlemanly enough to take the two ends.haha.
the early morning cycle with some other j1s and j2s was great too.haha it was like the random-est of all people thrown together.we basically started out going back to the lokang to take a photo and from there it led on to one place after the next, one park to the next...til we ended up at bedok reservior.after that we followed the mrt track all the way back to the chalet.i think we were a hazard to pavement traffic, but it was fun.all in all we cycled about 4 hours.and plus the 4 hours cycled earlier with the section, i did like 8 hours of cycling.came home in the afternoon and just crashed.
i'm having alot of different feelings and emotions now.its making me all confused.actions, words, vibes...haha.
i don't know.i really don't know anything anymore.
smiles @ 23:03.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
its christmas soon!
haha.i have like.mixed feelings about it all la.
cos christmas means the year's gonna end soon...which means the next year's gonna start soon too.and when you think about it, its like.sian.A's next year.
sometimes i just wanna stay a kid.haha.where exams were just these papers you did in the classroom with nobody beside you and when the teachers refuse to let you hand it up until some auspicious hour even though you've finished.where nothing pisses you off more than someone having that chocolate/pencil box/accessory/thing that you wanted first.
and then sometimes, i'm glad i'm growing older.like, at fifteen i got my pink ic...sixteen i became even sweeter, seventeen sexier...haha.later nights out, less nagging, more variety of friends, better understanding of things, larger depth of feelings, both known and unknown.what will being 18 bring other than being legal to drive, buy alcohol and watch m18 shows?
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
And I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
And I, I just wanna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for St. Nick
I won't even stay awake
To hear those magic reindeer click
Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding onto me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby, all I want for Christmas is you
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of childrens' laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me
I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just wanna see my baby
Standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby, all I want for Christmas is you
haha.i have like.mixed feelings about it all la.
cos christmas means the year's gonna end soon...which means the next year's gonna start soon too.and when you think about it, its like.sian.A's next year.
sometimes i just wanna stay a kid.haha.where exams were just these papers you did in the classroom with nobody beside you and when the teachers refuse to let you hand it up until some auspicious hour even though you've finished.where nothing pisses you off more than someone having that chocolate/pencil box/accessory/thing that you wanted first.
and then sometimes, i'm glad i'm growing older.like, at fifteen i got my pink ic...sixteen i became even sweeter, seventeen sexier...haha.later nights out, less nagging, more variety of friends, better understanding of things, larger depth of feelings, both known and unknown.what will being 18 bring other than being legal to drive, buy alcohol and watch m18 shows?
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
And I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
And I, I just wanna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for St. Nick
I won't even stay awake
To hear those magic reindeer click
Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding onto me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby, all I want for Christmas is you
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of childrens' laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me
I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just wanna see my baby
Standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby, all I want for Christmas is you
smiles @ 23:08.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You
And You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You
And You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
smiles @ 21:32.
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I go from earth into Eternity
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I go from earth into Eternity
smiles @ 20:55.
Saturday, November 03, 2007
You can't hurt me with the things that you do
I'll pick up dandelions and I'll give them to you
<3 tbone`o7
I'll pick up dandelions and I'll give them to you
<3 tbone`o7
smiles @ 22:24.