not going to explain or defend myself.
if its how u interpret it...
den.dats it la.
cos in the end.
everythings pretty well biased.
and it'll just be me.
so.im saving u the trouble.
yeah.its me.
wadeva.
smiles @ 20:16.
i read some stuff.
i dunno.
i feel.a mixture of emotions la.
bad.guilty.
at the same time...
kinda like.disappointment.
arh...i dunno.
Sunshine beating down on my lifeMaybe that's a long time awayBut I guess I'll take it day by dayYou ask when I'll get my smile backWell I'll tell you I can smile nowThough I know I'm downAnd if you stay around it might just happenHey, you just don't understand a thingSometimes my sky's a little grayAnd I know eventually I'll be feeling alright again, yeah 'beautiful world' by jump5.
smiles @ 21:51.
whoo.
school starts again tml.
im
so looking forward to it.
but hey.be proud of me.
hahas.
ive finished chem emaths amaths and chinese.
lols.
come to think of it.
its like.the first time i did so much.
oh well.
im different.
hahas.
smiles @ 20:37.
back from camp.
well in some ways it was fun...
some ways it was sian.
amazing race was cool.
hitching rides from vans...
lorries...
even a bus.
=D
i guess.yeah.
everyones a leader.
in their own way.
i wont exactly say im like.
super thrilled abt how it turned out.
but hey.
its already been chosen.
so i'll just support it.
although...yeah.
in some ways its kinda like.
hmmmmm.
schools starting in like.3 days.?.
did a maths just now.
or rather.tried to.
i gave up after the 3rd question.
smiles @ 13:08.
You're my beautiful reality
And everything about You speaks to me
You're a fragrance in my mind
Caught up in my thoughts time after time
You say, come closer, look at the possiblity
When I get closer You pull me in like gravity
Every body looking for the way to everlasting love
Hoping to find a little peice of mind from anyone
But when they see what You mean to me
Then they will know
That perfect love You've given
Lord You're wonderful
My thoughts inside and feelings, too
Will struggle till' my heart and mind are one with You
The answer is so plain to see
And now I know the way this love is supposed to be, yeah
When I get closer, can this be my destiny?
Every body looking for the way to everlasting love
Hoping to find a little peice of mind from anyone
But when they see what You mean to me
Then they will know
That perfect love you've given
Lord You're wonderful
As I get closer a light is shining down on me
I'll never have the words enough to tell you how I feel
Like when you kept my world from falling down
If there's any good in me, it must be plain to see
'Cause it's your fingerprints inside the very heart of me
Every body looking for the way to everlasting love
Hoping to find a little peice of mind from anyone
But when they see what You mean to me
Then they will know
That perfect love you've given
Lord You're wonderful
You're wonderful
-'
wonderful' by jump5
smiles @ 20:14.
i am a person of my own words.
dont put words into my mouth.
went acjc concert on thurs nite.
with the french horn section.
wacky group of ppl.
but real fun.really.
hahas.wacking and playing.
had some like.discussion with the cell on friday.
yeah things are not the same now.
nowhere . . .
hahas.
nowhere is kinda the place where i am in lots of stuff.
school.life.stuff.band.
everything's like.different from before.
den its.going hahas.
nowhere . . .
smiles @ 21:32.
time is needed
for recollection of thoughts.
time is needed
for decisions to be made.
time is needed
when things get too overwhelming.
time cant be rewind-
ed.
we have one life.
how productive it turns out.
its all our decision.
decision.
its a big word.
decisions have to be made.
from choices dat are given.
so dat things can carry on.
perhaps im really too young to understand.
to comprehend.
wad the real and full picture is.
to see it before a decision.
but wadeva it is.
i need time.
i dont want decisions.
but i CANT always get wad i want eh.?.
smiles @ 20:55.
blisters are so.
painful.
and i have one on both heels.
stupid shoes.
the blisters are gross la.
its like.all red...
and skin peeling.
which damn painful.
and i thot alvamar overture was such a cool song.
it so is not la.
its.err.
boring.?.
and tiring.
imagine playing quavers continuously...
and such
high quavers.
hmmmm.but altogether...
it still sounds good la.
hahas.
changes and sacrifices.
where am i going to get $146 .?.?.?.
smiles @ 11:30.
You pick up my dreams
that need a jump start
Give it all I can,
I crash, and for what?
You stick up for me
when I fall hard
Take down all my fear
You're driving
my thoughts around in my head
So I won't break down
around each bend
With my foot on the pedal, I'll race ahead
You ride this life with me
I am aware
I can when you are here
You are in my heart
You are in my heart
When every little thing is falling apart
You're beating in my heart
You're beating in my heart
When the clock strikes night,
and I'm in the dark
Lonely here,
and there you are
When the lines get cut,
and I feel far
You're reaching out to me
When I feel like a freak,
the words You say
Tell me to believe that I'm okay
When I don't make sense
'cuz I'm this way
You see the best in me
I am aware
I can when You are here
-
'in my heart' by jump5
smiles @ 20:12.
sometimes i wonder
if right choices were made.
if it was the right thing to do.
sometimes when
so many choices are open to u
it gets complicating...
sometimes when so many
are depending on dat one decision.
it is stressful.
yeah pple's opinion
shld be taken into consideration
but too much is no.
it changes ur thinking
wad u actually intended to do
makes u rethink wad u have thought
and ultimately.
confuses everything.
its hard not to get affected.
smiles @ 20:52.