Saturday, September 03, 2005

i have mixed feelings now.
im pissed and guilty at the same time.

its like.
im trying to please everyone.
make everyone happy.
but im tired of being there for everyone.
this sounds really bad.but its true.
how abt me?
its not like i dont know the feeling of neglectance.
just cos i dont show it
doesnt mean my world's perfect.

ok i have great frens like bryan
who actually understand me for who i am.
im not friend-less.
but i just dont want to run around
and be the crowd pleaser anymore.
its wearing me out.
and for wad?
to have it thrown back in my face?

do i look like i have the

'come dump your problems on me' face?

yes its not dat i mind.

i really love to help.

but it'll be nice if u guys could actually listen for once.

i dont expect rolling credits or wad
but it would be nice for an appreciation or something.

i used to ask pple how they were...
if their probs were improving and everything
i was trying to be the perfect friend.
but now back and i wonder
if my efforts were all to waste
because after all no one can be perfect.
so why try?

smiles @ 20:33.