Tuesday, November 27, 2007
sometimes i wonder how people can just like spill anything and everything they're feeling about on their blog.i mean, isn't it very frightening?like, everyone will know how you feel, what you feel, when you felt happy/lonely/afraid/every other emotion that you can feel...doesn't it make you feel super vulnerable?and then people will go like, oh so and so was feeling like that last week cos so and so did something to her...blah blah.
i don't know.many people have blogs for different reasons.some really treat it as a diary, which i unfortunately can't.its too...public to spill whatever i'm feeling or my secrets to.to me, its like writing in a locked diary but leaving the key in the lock.i guess my blog is used to post random stuff.or stuff that i feel can represent my feelings...but not in the in-your-face way.it leaves people guessing, i admit that.haha.but at least i don't feel so exposed and vulnerable.
i've nothing against all of you that treat your blog as your diary.hey its a personal choice.i'm just reasoning with myself what i actually use my blog for.maybe im thinking of closing it down.i don't know, we'll see.meanwhile no offense to anybody yeah?just take this as another random post.
just back from band chalet and pasir ris and basically the highlight wasn't the half hour bbq (at least that's how much time my section actually spent eating) but rather the cycling.the night cycling with michelle soomin manfred and shaun was really the best.we got lost around paris ris park, cycled under bridges into hdb estates, til we even called the lokang with trees along its side as 'scenery'.haha but i think we became even closer, trusted each other more, bonded more.it felt safe cycling with them, with the guys being so gentlemanly enough to take the two ends.haha.
the early morning cycle with some other j1s and j2s was great too.haha it was like the random-est of all people thrown together.we basically started out going back to the lokang to take a photo and from there it led on to one place after the next, one park to the next...til we ended up at bedok reservior.after that we followed the mrt track all the way back to the chalet.i think we were a hazard to pavement traffic, but it was fun.all in all we cycled about 4 hours.and plus the 4 hours cycled earlier with the section, i did like 8 hours of cycling.came home in the afternoon and just crashed.
i'm having alot of different feelings and emotions now.its making me all confused.actions, words, vibes...haha.
i don't know.i really don't know anything anymore.
i don't know.many people have blogs for different reasons.some really treat it as a diary, which i unfortunately can't.its too...public to spill whatever i'm feeling or my secrets to.to me, its like writing in a locked diary but leaving the key in the lock.i guess my blog is used to post random stuff.or stuff that i feel can represent my feelings...but not in the in-your-face way.it leaves people guessing, i admit that.haha.but at least i don't feel so exposed and vulnerable.
i've nothing against all of you that treat your blog as your diary.hey its a personal choice.i'm just reasoning with myself what i actually use my blog for.maybe im thinking of closing it down.i don't know, we'll see.meanwhile no offense to anybody yeah?just take this as another random post.
just back from band chalet and pasir ris and basically the highlight wasn't the half hour bbq (at least that's how much time my section actually spent eating) but rather the cycling.the night cycling with michelle soomin manfred and shaun was really the best.we got lost around paris ris park, cycled under bridges into hdb estates, til we even called the lokang with trees along its side as 'scenery'.haha but i think we became even closer, trusted each other more, bonded more.it felt safe cycling with them, with the guys being so gentlemanly enough to take the two ends.haha.
the early morning cycle with some other j1s and j2s was great too.haha it was like the random-est of all people thrown together.we basically started out going back to the lokang to take a photo and from there it led on to one place after the next, one park to the next...til we ended up at bedok reservior.after that we followed the mrt track all the way back to the chalet.i think we were a hazard to pavement traffic, but it was fun.all in all we cycled about 4 hours.and plus the 4 hours cycled earlier with the section, i did like 8 hours of cycling.came home in the afternoon and just crashed.
i'm having alot of different feelings and emotions now.its making me all confused.actions, words, vibes...haha.
i don't know.i really don't know anything anymore.
smiles @ 23:03.