Wednesday, February 04, 2009
hi.mentally and physically tired.haha.yes, i love my job.but when you reach home and sink into bed then you realise how tired you are.although i don't know why it is so draining either.
went shopping at popular today.spent like an hour in there flipping through assessment books.then spent like 10mins going in circles trying to find "nice-nice" stickers.the total was two hundred over bucks for like 25 books and 3 sheets of stickers!haha.lugged them all like an auntie and took a bus to work.it's round two on friday, because the new stock of books will be in then.how did i know?cos the auntie me went to ask.actually, i was looking for normal tech syllabus stuff.it's amazing how much stuff there is for express students, and normal academic students even.but the poor normal tech kids have hardly any assessment and enrichment books for them.which doesn't make sense, i mean it's because they are weak that's why we need assessment to help them right?but yes, i know economics, and because people think that normal tech kids probably won't bother to buy, so there won't be a demand, but the express and special stream kids are probably kiasu and so will buying every single thing on the shelf.so anyway, this kind staff pointed me to the bottom shelf, which was like only 3/4-full.she explained only EPB publishing bothers to publish books for the normal tech kids.and even then, only english and maths assessment are published.
it's really sad actually.the kids in the home that are in sec school are mostly in the normal tech stream, those in primary sch are either doing foundation subjects, or are waaay behind in their level.you want to help them, but helping each of them takes up time and focused attention.like one-on-one tuition everyday.and this is a luxury we don't have.everyday i'm given about one-half to two hours to go around all four sections during their study time.that's like 30 kids demanding attention.but you can't spend too long on one person, because there's simply no time.so i can't help them individaully, and assessment books and other help cannot be found for them, how are they ever going to break out of this cycle?i was talking with aunty soohong over dinner, and she said that for these kids, going to ITE is something to celebrate about, much less poly or jc.most of them end up having to find a job after their N levels, and out of the home they go, she says.because by then they'll be above 18.how are these kids ever going to find a stable job, stable income, have a future?
this is so depressing.
i think i need to be fiercer.
went shopping at popular today.spent like an hour in there flipping through assessment books.then spent like 10mins going in circles trying to find "nice-nice" stickers.the total was two hundred over bucks for like 25 books and 3 sheets of stickers!haha.lugged them all like an auntie and took a bus to work.it's round two on friday, because the new stock of books will be in then.how did i know?cos the auntie me went to ask.actually, i was looking for normal tech syllabus stuff.it's amazing how much stuff there is for express students, and normal academic students even.but the poor normal tech kids have hardly any assessment and enrichment books for them.which doesn't make sense, i mean it's because they are weak that's why we need assessment to help them right?but yes, i know economics, and because people think that normal tech kids probably won't bother to buy, so there won't be a demand, but the express and special stream kids are probably kiasu and so will buying every single thing on the shelf.so anyway, this kind staff pointed me to the bottom shelf, which was like only 3/4-full.she explained only EPB publishing bothers to publish books for the normal tech kids.and even then, only english and maths assessment are published.
it's really sad actually.the kids in the home that are in sec school are mostly in the normal tech stream, those in primary sch are either doing foundation subjects, or are waaay behind in their level.you want to help them, but helping each of them takes up time and focused attention.like one-on-one tuition everyday.and this is a luxury we don't have.everyday i'm given about one-half to two hours to go around all four sections during their study time.that's like 30 kids demanding attention.but you can't spend too long on one person, because there's simply no time.so i can't help them individaully, and assessment books and other help cannot be found for them, how are they ever going to break out of this cycle?i was talking with aunty soohong over dinner, and she said that for these kids, going to ITE is something to celebrate about, much less poly or jc.most of them end up having to find a job after their N levels, and out of the home they go, she says.because by then they'll be above 18.how are these kids ever going to find a stable job, stable income, have a future?
this is so depressing.
i think i need to be fiercer.
smiles @ 22:24.