Wednesday, May 27, 2009
everytime after driving i'll take 188 which takes me straight to work.and 188 goes past the dunearn bus stop and bukit batok area.which always makes me feel nostalgic whenever i pass it.the bus stop that we always crowd in, the bridge over the drain the guys always sit on the railing on, the strange woodsy area across the school with a small trail that i only remeber vaguely going in once for some school camp, west mall and all its eating stores, the mama shop by the sch bus stop that lily and i would go to buy m&ms after band, the area around the school that consitutes our annual cross country.plus, learning in bbdc means having to drive around bukit batok/teck whye area.
haha.these memories where just ecentuated by the fact that we still gathered last sat for mine and jiawei's birthday dinner despite this being our third year apart.i think its amazing how we can all lead our own lives, grow more mature (haha!), and yet when we meet back like probbaly 5 times a year, we still laugh at each other's jokes, get along like we've never left, and act like 13-year olds.
haha.these memories where just ecentuated by the fact that we still gathered last sat for mine and jiawei's birthday dinner despite this being our third year apart.i think its amazing how we can all lead our own lives, grow more mature (haha!), and yet when we meet back like probbaly 5 times a year, we still laugh at each other's jokes, get along like we've never left, and act like 13-year olds.
i just thank God for you. (:
i think it has been my most trying week at work thus far.sometimes i begin to doubt if its my 'calling' to go into this line of work.its a thankless job and i don't know if i'm able to live with that for long.like always, i'm one who needs assurance and appreciation.i really salute the staff who've been there for years and years.i think even five years is an achievement.
i think i'm slipping into a timothy-who-am-i-and-what-am-i-doing-here phase.
When it's not alright
When it's not okay
Will you try to make me feel better
Will you say alright
Will you say okay
Will you stick with me through whatever
Or run away?
i can't do it anymore, it's too hard and it's affect everything which i though wouldn't.and it sucks to be proven that you can't make it.either my expectations are too high, or it's that i finally see you for who you are.
i think it has been my most trying week at work thus far.sometimes i begin to doubt if its my 'calling' to go into this line of work.its a thankless job and i don't know if i'm able to live with that for long.like always, i'm one who needs assurance and appreciation.i really salute the staff who've been there for years and years.i think even five years is an achievement.
i think i'm slipping into a timothy-who-am-i-and-what-am-i-doing-here phase.
When it's not alright
When it's not okay
Will you try to make me feel better
Will you say alright
Will you say okay
Will you stick with me through whatever
Or run away?
i can't do it anymore, it's too hard and it's affect everything which i though wouldn't.and it sucks to be proven that you can't make it.either my expectations are too high, or it's that i finally see you for who you are.
smiles @ 22:56.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Reasons why i do not like public transport:
1. You have to wait really long for the bus to come.like really really long.
2. You get demoralised while waiting because you see the same few buses that keep passing by with hardly anybody inside...and they are all NOT your buses.
3. When your bus finally arrives, you have to squeeze with the whole wide bus stop-ful of people to get in.need i say anything about getting a seat?
4. When you finally get in, the bus driver drives at the speed of the cyclist beside it.
5. You do not have the power to tell the bus driver to drive faster!
6. Nor can you tell him to stop going into every bus bay WHEN THERE'S NO ONE THERE.
7. You have to pray the traffic light continues to stay green even when the bus driver decides to slow down and wait for an orange light to stop.
8. You see another bus which you could take OVERTAKE the bus you're in.
Reasons why i'm learning how to drive:
1. I do not need to wait really really long to get to my destination.
2. I do not need to wait for my car to come.
3. I have a lot of breathing space and do not need to squeeze with a thousand and one people.
4. I will not drive at the speed of a cyclist.
5. I am IN CONTROL of the vehicle.
6. I do not need to keep stopping because i do not have a thousand and one people in my vehicle.
7. I can speed up when the light turns orange.
8. I can overtake OTHER PEOPLE.
yes, i really really really do not like public transport.
1. You have to wait really long for the bus to come.like really really long.
2. You get demoralised while waiting because you see the same few buses that keep passing by with hardly anybody inside...and they are all NOT your buses.
3. When your bus finally arrives, you have to squeeze with the whole wide bus stop-ful of people to get in.need i say anything about getting a seat?
4. When you finally get in, the bus driver drives at the speed of the cyclist beside it.
5. You do not have the power to tell the bus driver to drive faster!
6. Nor can you tell him to stop going into every bus bay WHEN THERE'S NO ONE THERE.
7. You have to pray the traffic light continues to stay green even when the bus driver decides to slow down and wait for an orange light to stop.
8. You see another bus which you could take OVERTAKE the bus you're in.
Reasons why i'm learning how to drive:
1. I do not need to wait really really long to get to my destination.
2. I do not need to wait for my car to come.
3. I have a lot of breathing space and do not need to squeeze with a thousand and one people.
4. I will not drive at the speed of a cyclist.
5. I am IN CONTROL of the vehicle.
6. I do not need to keep stopping because i do not have a thousand and one people in my vehicle.
7. I can speed up when the light turns orange.
8. I can overtake OTHER PEOPLE.
yes, i really really really do not like public transport.
smiles @ 21:09.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
i'm into 'songs of the moment' these few days.happy songs like you are a child of mine, the other in Christ alone and enough.guanyou lead worship today, and i think all his songs were happy songs!haha.i think it's not so much of happy, like sing to the king happy, but more of secure and assuring in the word of God speak way.yup and if you know me, i'm all about assurance and security.maybe that's why i'm like into these songs for now haha.
More than all I want
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can see
You are more than enough for me
i've learnt and realised that everything that happens works for the glory of God.and it's usually in the times when things don't happen the way you want it to that you find it hard to accept that.but for me, i think it's times like these that draw me back to Him, and that things don't work out because i've placed it above Him.
and i've reconciled the fact that it doesn't matter to me if someone came up to me one day and told me that christianity is all a lie and everything.because it's by faith i believe that He is real.hope is the confident expectation of things to come.and i put my hope in Him.i'm expecting things to happen.
haha i don't know why i wrote all this.sudden inspiration (:
No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of men
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Till He returns, or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I stand
More than all I want
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can see
You are more than enough for me
i've learnt and realised that everything that happens works for the glory of God.and it's usually in the times when things don't happen the way you want it to that you find it hard to accept that.but for me, i think it's times like these that draw me back to Him, and that things don't work out because i've placed it above Him.
and i've reconciled the fact that it doesn't matter to me if someone came up to me one day and told me that christianity is all a lie and everything.because it's by faith i believe that He is real.hope is the confident expectation of things to come.and i put my hope in Him.i'm expecting things to happen.
haha i don't know why i wrote all this.sudden inspiration (:
No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of men
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Till He returns, or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I stand
smiles @ 00:08.
Saturday, May 09, 2009
Father, into Your courts I will enter
Maker of Heaven and earth, I tremble
In Your Holy presence
Glory, glory in Your sanctuary
Splendour and Majesty Lord
Before You, all life adores You
All the earth will declare
That Your love is everywhere
The fields will exalt, seas resound
Hear the trees' joyful cry
Praising You and so will I
A new song I'll sing
Lord I will glorify and bless
Your Holy name
-All the earth by Don Moen
the new song of the moment.
that's all.
9.30am in corps tmr. :(
Maker of Heaven and earth, I tremble
In Your Holy presence
Glory, glory in Your sanctuary
Splendour and Majesty Lord
Before You, all life adores You
All the earth will declare
That Your love is everywhere
The fields will exalt, seas resound
Hear the trees' joyful cry
Praising You and so will I
A new song I'll sing
Lord I will glorify and bless
Your Holy name
-All the earth by Don Moen
the new song of the moment.
that's all.
9.30am in corps tmr. :(
smiles @ 23:48.