Wednesday, May 27, 2009

everytime after driving i'll take 188 which takes me straight to work.and 188 goes past the dunearn bus stop and bukit batok area.which always makes me feel nostalgic whenever i pass it.the bus stop that we always crowd in, the bridge over the drain the guys always sit on the railing on, the strange woodsy area across the school with a small trail that i only remeber vaguely going in once for some school camp, west mall and all its eating stores, the mama shop by the sch bus stop that lily and i would go to buy m&ms after band, the area around the school that consitutes our annual cross country.plus, learning in bbdc means having to drive around bukit batok/teck whye area.

haha.these memories where just ecentuated by the fact that we still gathered last sat for mine and jiawei's birthday dinner despite this being our third year apart.i think its amazing how we can all lead our own lives, grow more mature (haha!), and yet when we meet back like probbaly 5 times a year, we still laugh at each other's jokes, get along like we've never left, and act like 13-year olds.

i just thank God for you. (:

i think it has been my most trying week at work thus far.sometimes i begin to doubt if its my 'calling' to go into this line of work.its a thankless job and i don't know if i'm able to live with that for long.like always, i'm one who needs assurance and appreciation.i really salute the staff who've been there for years and years.i think even five years is an achievement.

i think i'm slipping into a timothy-who-am-i-and-what-am-i-doing-here phase.

When it's not alright
When it's not okay
Will you try to make me feel better
Will you say alright
Will you say okay
Will you stick with me through whatever

Or run away?

i can't do it anymore, it's too hard and it's affect everything which i though wouldn't.and it sucks to be proven that you can't make it.either my expectations are too high, or it's that i finally see you for who you are.

smiles @ 22:56.