i have no idea wads happening.
its like.
i feel dat we're going somewhere...
and den we're fighting.
den im like.
???
i dunno.
i made a decision.
but i have no idea how long i can hold on to it.
sometimes i juz feel like running away...
from everything...
and juz wish everything back to wad it was last time.
juz living my life carefree...
and other times...
i have the patience and everything to pull thru.
maybe i juz dont know wad i want.
i thot i did...
but i guess...wad we want is different.
i cant wait foreva...
for now, maybe.
but definitely...
not foreva.
smiles @ 20:55.