Wednesday, February 25, 2009
i think i'm abnormal.
i'm not into what a seemingly typical youth shld be.like drinking and clubbing and shopping and drinking coffee and being at home only to sleep.i honestly don't think that even stuff like consuming alcoholic drinks and all are going to be hard for me to abstain from in the future.maybe i'm too naive and i haven't grown up yet.people say you'll grow up in secondary school.my mom said you'll mature in jc.but i've been in and out of both, and i still think i'm the same.maybe i'm just too guai.i seriously think guys get scared when they find out that i'm not into drinking and clubbing and shopping and everything else.i don't even drink coffee!maybe i'm just different.
maybe i'm just abnormal.
sigh.
okay sorry for that emo and "who am i?" paragraph.today was the most trying day of my working life so far.i went down to jurong point to get stuff photocopied and binded, and i kinda got lost in that place.it's renovated and really huge by the way, shld go check it out.so anyway, the lady told me to come back in an hour, so i wandered around looking for popular, my new best friend.bought a couple of assessment books and then went back.one hour turned out to be one and a half, so i was seriously late for work already.collected the stuff and took a cab.the driver was telling me about how i shld say go to aye and turn off clementi road and not south bouna vista road, cos that will mean travelling one big round to get to pasir panjang road.then he went on to say how singapore is such a fine country, and that singaporeans will not be scared until they get fined and feel the pinch.typical cynical cab driver i guess.
anyway, the day was still redeemable.there was no tuition to plan for, cos all the nus students were on exam study break.it actually got better, until at night, where generous me decided to do group tuition for the p6 kids.i thought that they would be angels today like yesterday, but ohhh no.long story short, it was a failure.i think i've been bullied by kids already.
how do you be firm with people?i don't think i can.i think i'm like a yes woman.i can't go like, no i'm not submitting to your demands.usually i ignore, but i think it makes situations worse.cos if you don't correct, the kid will think it's okay, or worse, know that you can't be firm and scold.
i don't think i take failures very well.i think it's a problem.
:(
i'm not into what a seemingly typical youth shld be.like drinking and clubbing and shopping and drinking coffee and being at home only to sleep.i honestly don't think that even stuff like consuming alcoholic drinks and all are going to be hard for me to abstain from in the future.maybe i'm too naive and i haven't grown up yet.people say you'll grow up in secondary school.my mom said you'll mature in jc.but i've been in and out of both, and i still think i'm the same.maybe i'm just too guai.i seriously think guys get scared when they find out that i'm not into drinking and clubbing and shopping and everything else.i don't even drink coffee!maybe i'm just different.
maybe i'm just abnormal.
sigh.
okay sorry for that emo and "who am i?" paragraph.today was the most trying day of my working life so far.i went down to jurong point to get stuff photocopied and binded, and i kinda got lost in that place.it's renovated and really huge by the way, shld go check it out.so anyway, the lady told me to come back in an hour, so i wandered around looking for popular, my new best friend.bought a couple of assessment books and then went back.one hour turned out to be one and a half, so i was seriously late for work already.collected the stuff and took a cab.the driver was telling me about how i shld say go to aye and turn off clementi road and not south bouna vista road, cos that will mean travelling one big round to get to pasir panjang road.then he went on to say how singapore is such a fine country, and that singaporeans will not be scared until they get fined and feel the pinch.typical cynical cab driver i guess.
anyway, the day was still redeemable.there was no tuition to plan for, cos all the nus students were on exam study break.it actually got better, until at night, where generous me decided to do group tuition for the p6 kids.i thought that they would be angels today like yesterday, but ohhh no.long story short, it was a failure.i think i've been bullied by kids already.
how do you be firm with people?i don't think i can.i think i'm like a yes woman.i can't go like, no i'm not submitting to your demands.usually i ignore, but i think it makes situations worse.cos if you don't correct, the kid will think it's okay, or worse, know that you can't be firm and scold.
i don't think i take failures very well.i think it's a problem.
:(
smiles @ 22:34.